The Fantasy Is Gone

The Fantasy Is Gone

You keep asking me if ever I will forget.

But I can't forget how it felt

To stand in front of you naked

And you looked the other way.

So this storm ends.

But I don't see you the way I once did.

I found a piece of me on the floor

And knew I was no longer whole.

When I tried to put it back,

It didn't quite fit the same.

Because we are not the same

Maybe it means we can change.

I don't want us to be over.

I don't want to our dreams to die.

The fantasy is gone

And sometimes it's hard to try.

When I'm alone

I can't help but wonder

How things would be different

If we had never been together.

The hurt and anger is hard to let go of.

It seems to be the place I live.

I am waiting for the spring's thaw

To break through the surface.

Your light warms my skin

And I start to melt.

I turn my face toward the sun

And soak in your heat.

I'm hanging over the edge of the cliff

And I'm holding on to you for dear life

Please don't let me go

Just don't let me go

It takes time to freeze,

So I will need time as well

Time to remember what's so great

About me.

(April 26, 2010)