What Do I Do Now?

What Do I Do Now?

I've always had to love someone.
Infatuously.*
I've always needed to say
I'm going to marry him someday.

So what do I do now?
You were always that one,
But suddenly I know
We're just not meant to be.

What do I do now?
Who will take your place
And fill this empty space in my heart?
What do I do now?

Do I keep on dreaming
Do I keep on hoping
That someday you'll come around?

(Late Summer 1998)

*Yes.  Yes, I did make up a word.  Let's all use it and make it a real thing like "ginormous".