My Lost Lover

So I liked vampires when I was a kid.  This poem seems to have been the first where I actually wrote about them, though.  I suppose it was an easy transition. Death then Vampires.

My Lost Lover

Falling into the darkness
Falling into the night
I've lost my lover to the cold.
I've lost my lover to the vampires.
I can't fight her.
I would never win.
I loved him deeply.
She just loved his skin.
Looking back, I wonder how he felt.
Did he love me as well?
She overpowered him in the darkness.
Walking home that  night.
I will never see him again.
Not as he was.
But I shall always remember.

(August 8, 1994)

The Girl

The Girl

For her, murder was the only way.
Otherwise he would stay.
Now guild and fear are all she knows.
She was abused and confused.
Loved by no one.
Hated by everyone.
Saved by no one.
Killed by everyone.
No one to turn to.
No one to love.
Everyone to hate.
Love is all she needs.
Love she will not take.
Everywhere she goes,
Rejection is all she finds.
Now she is looking for
Something she will never find.
Nobody will ever love her for her face.
Nobody will ever love her for her mind.
She will never win this race.
Never.

(August 8, 1994)

I Can't Go On

I Can't Go On

I can't go on.
No, I can't go on.
Not without you.
You meant so much to me.
You still do.
Come back!
I love you.
Come back!
I love you.

You said you loved me, too.
Now I can't believe you.
But I still love you.
I can't shake this feeling
Like you can.
Come back!
I love you.
Come back!
I love you.

I love you.
I love you.

(August 7, 1994)

Suicide

Suicide

Where did I go wrong?
Trying to piece together the puzzle.
I see the picture,
But the pieces won't fit.
Why can't I see
How it will be?
If only I knew.
Why did he throw it all away?
Why did he?
I loved him so.
Oh, how I loved him!
Didn't he know
How much I cared?
Death is forever.
His problems were not.
I would have helped.
Why didn't he tell me?
Why did he not?

(August 7, 1994)

A Poem For Brian

When I started this blog, my brother-in-law said, "Hey, Melissa, will you write me a poem?"  Of course I said I would.  I'm just way too nice like that.  So Brian, here is your crappy poem.  Hee hee!  I started out trying to make it rhyme, but then I just gave up.  I hope you like it!

A Poem For Brian

I think you know

But maybe you don’t.

You have a smile for everyone.

And a song, too.

Yes, you know.

You know what love can do.

And I marvel at the way

You can find the joke midst the anger.

You seem glad to see me.

You make everything fun

When you wisecrack and laugh

My troubles start to melt away.

Or forgotten for a little while.

And perhaps not quite as big

As I thought they were.

And yes.  I think you know.

(December 25, 2013)

Untitled

So this next crappy poem.  Well, I couldn't post it all those days ago.  You see, it's about death and I had just found out a family member of mine was in the hospital.  So while it is still a crappy poem, I was just too emotional to post it.  I wanted to write a poem for my family member, but I just couldn't at the time.  December is the most busy month of my year.  So much happens and so many people demand so much from me.  But my family member (while not out of the woods just yet) is back home from the hospital and  doing much better, so I think I can finally post this one.

Untitled

Letting go of you...
Realizing you were never mine
You ran out of time.
My clock still ticks.

How I love you still.
Going on isn't easy.
I sit in my window sill.
It is a bit breezy.

I only see gray.
Where is my world of color?
It left the day,
The day you died.

(August 7, 1994)

Yeah.  That "It is a bit breezy" line gets me, too.
Merry Christmas!

You

You

You knew it all along.
I never said a word.
We belonged together.
Sworn to secrecy,
I told a few.
They never told
But you knew.
You never let on.
You played my game.
You followed along
You felt the same.
We went our separate ways.
Something was missing.
Something wasn't the same.
I searched for the lost.
I didn't realize it was you.
When we were reunited
I remembered, I realized
I would fight to have
You with me forever.

(July 18, 1994)

Treasure Map

Treasure Map

Half a map
Showed the X.
The other half was gone.
Where to begin?
I would never win.
I only had
Half a map!

I left it on my
   window sill.
The wind blew round
And swept the map
To the ground.
I ran after it.
I ran down the street.
It led me to you.
Now the map is complete.

To Die Now

Well, so much for doing a post every day.
This one didn't have a title.  So I think I will give it one now.

To Die Now

Must I go?
I'm not ready yet.
I've so much to do.
So much

To die now
Would ruin my plans.
I want to live on
To grow old.

Don't take me now.
I wish you would go.
Leave me alone.
I must go on.

Don't take me now.

Nothing Can Keep Us Apart

Nothing Can Keep Us Apart

Earthquakes shudder the ground.
Moaning and groaning can be heard
Seeking the righteous until they are found.
The wicked are engulfed by flames with one word.

As I turn to find him
My hopes begin to slide.
A tear falls as the lights dim.
Where could he hide?

As the day is breaking
My heart, too, falls apart.
But then I see him waking.
Now nothing can keep us apart.

He Finally Knows

I'm not sure when I wrote this (obviously sometime in 1994), but it's cute.


He Finally Knows

Letters written
Letters that can't be given.

Too embarrassed.
Too ashamed.

Wishing she had the courage
To explain how she feels,

She sits in her room
Wallowing in self-pity.

Getting up the next day
Needing change

She shows the slightest
Bit of interest.

A smile to say, "Hello."
He is wearing yellow.

Noticing the change
He is taken aback.

He recovers
And smiles back.

Making eye contact.
She, blushing, turns away.

He finally knows.

If I Had You

If I Had You

If I had you
You'd be the one.
You wouldn't be a fool
In my eyes.

If I had someone
Who'd care for me,
And be there through
     thick and thin,

If you loved me too
I could be joyous.
I would be glorious

But you don't.
I have no one.

Love II

Okay, so these next poems seem to mark where I started writing just to write.  Most of these will probably sound like the lyrics to some bad pop songs, but there are a few that I think are actually pretty good.  Today's is not one of them.

Love II

Love can bind you.
Love can blind you.
Love can set you free.

Let love set you free.
Let yourself be with me.

If only you could see
How I care.
How I love.

It isn't hard
To look inside
And find

The good things
Love brings.